seriously just aches. it hurts. its breaking.
im literally heart broken
i hate change because im scared. even if its for the best.
i want a therapist.
i dont want to feel this way anymore.
Sunday, March 24, 2013
Wednesday, March 20, 2013
20mar13
went on a walk with the little munchkin after her nap
little diva! has the attitude and look for sure
tryin out the middle part...hate it. makes me look fat. butt part. i don't like!
we are ready for the 120 degree weather! bring it.
lets go swimming
cause thats calis FAVORITE thing.
playing with her toys.
she is getting so big. i know i say that all the time but its crazy how fast it happens. just like that song by kenney chesney "don't blink"
its a true song.
lol! i don't know what it is about that blue shape thing but she LOVES to put it on her head. doesn't matter when or where she likes to wear it. haha it cracks me up.
i would have to say calis 3 favorite things right now are:
- taking baths
- going on walks
- being chased
she just got over being sick for a whole week. it was NOT fun. she had an ear infection plus teething. she is getting her back molars and it has been hell. but finally we went to the doctors and got some medicine. and she has been feeling so much better. her appitite has increased back to normal and she is my happy little babe. she is such a sweet spirit and is so much fun to be around. we are excited to go to utah and see our relatives in a couple of days.
i will be writing about our trip and trying to stay updated. i already know its going to be crazy busy which i love!!
xo xo ashley
Saturday, March 16, 2013
strep throat
is seriously one of thee worst things someone can go through. it feels like a razor blade is stuck in your throat. :[ i couldn't swallow ANYTHING and i couldn't talk, whisper, nothing cause it hurt that bad.
cali has been sick too, so i finally decided to go to the doctors. like i said i had strep, and cali had an ear infection :[ so we have been battling with getting better. thanks to antibiotics, we have recovered a lot faster than we would have! i don't know how people lived in the olden days. poor people.
it has been a struggle taking care of cali and i being this sick. im so grateful that tommy came down and helped me with cali so i could get some sleep. and thanks to my aunt, darryl, grandma and chelsea too! im so glad that i have the family and friends that i do. i don't know where id be with out them!
xo xo
cali has been sick too, so i finally decided to go to the doctors. like i said i had strep, and cali had an ear infection :[ so we have been battling with getting better. thanks to antibiotics, we have recovered a lot faster than we would have! i don't know how people lived in the olden days. poor people.
it has been a struggle taking care of cali and i being this sick. im so grateful that tommy came down and helped me with cali so i could get some sleep. and thanks to my aunt, darryl, grandma and chelsea too! im so glad that i have the family and friends that i do. i don't know where id be with out them!
xo xo
Wednesday, March 6, 2013
lucky me
t ♥mmy (the man in my previous post) is coming to see me today! i am so excited!!
the girls at work are freaking out and want to meet him. they told me that he can't go on another date with me unless he comes in to get his teeth cleaned lol. so jane said she would clean his teeth for free. better be prepared to be grilled tommy boy ;] hahaha, SO FREAKIN EXCITED!!!
xo xo
the girls at work are freaking out and want to meet him. they told me that he can't go on another date with me unless he comes in to get his teeth cleaned lol. so jane said she would clean his teeth for free. better be prepared to be grilled tommy boy ;] hahaha, SO FREAKIN EXCITED!!!
xo xo
Tuesday, March 5, 2013
work
is going so great these last couple of days. i am starting to get better and better...well im always getting better, but im starting to expand my knowledge in the office. there is a lot more that i can do on my own. im proud of myself.
its amazing what confidence does to a person. when you feel good about yourself things just flow and go so well i think. i love feeling this way! i love feeling good enough; for myself and for someone else. there are a lot of things that i need to work on but im working on them and growing and learning everyday. and im just happy! so happy :D
work was good today! i helped doc with this older women who we did a root canal on. root canals are so easy! you seriously do nothing. and then we prepped for a splinted emax crown on #'s 21 & 22. i love prepping and seating crowns. and i like doing x rays. hahah. but i hate doing the financial side. and insurance as of right now. eventually i want to learn it and expand my knowledge to that side of the business, and i will. ive started a little bit but it will definitely help me in the long run. i love my office!! sometimes its boring but its getting more fun.
and i can't stop thinking about him ;] eeekk
best feeling in the world!
xo xo ashley
its amazing what confidence does to a person. when you feel good about yourself things just flow and go so well i think. i love feeling this way! i love feeling good enough; for myself and for someone else. there are a lot of things that i need to work on but im working on them and growing and learning everyday. and im just happy! so happy :D
work was good today! i helped doc with this older women who we did a root canal on. root canals are so easy! you seriously do nothing. and then we prepped for a splinted emax crown on #'s 21 & 22. i love prepping and seating crowns. and i like doing x rays. hahah. but i hate doing the financial side. and insurance as of right now. eventually i want to learn it and expand my knowledge to that side of the business, and i will. ive started a little bit but it will definitely help me in the long run. i love my office!! sometimes its boring but its getting more fun.
and i can't stop thinking about him ;] eeekk
best feeling in the world!
xo xo ashley
Monday, March 4, 2013
im dreaming!
i must be! there is no way this is real.
i met this guy who is seriously so perfect. and when i say perfect, i mean perfect for me!
he took me on the best first date i have ever been on.
he picked me up and would not tell me where we were going. as we were driving to our destination the suspense kept building! i was going crazy because it had to be a surprise. he wouldn't tell me where we were going! finally we pulled into maverick helicopters. i was still freaking out but at the same time i was so excited. he was taking me on a helicopter ride!!! i was with this very attractive man, going on a helicopter ride! these things don't happen everyday haha. our helicopter ride took us over the strip in Vegas. it honestly was one of the coolest things ever.
after our ride, we went to Excalibur, the tournament of kings! dinner and a show! you have to eat with your hands. ;p i was kind of grossed out cause it was a chicken and i don't like using my fingers haha and bones, slimy and eww. so i didn't eat very much. but the show was fun.
after that we came back to my house and we hung out and talked till 4 in the morning! this girl NEVER does that. haha im usually in bed at 9:30. well, always before 11. but we definitely had some intense conversations and just got to know each other. i don't know if i feel like ive known him forever but i do know that i would like to get to know him forever. this sounds crazy because we have only been on one date. but it really was just that great! he is very in tuned with the gospel and that is something that i love. i may have drifted away from that part of my life but its still there, its something that i still want. and still something that i want to raise my kids in and have it be a part of my life. and i want someone who is going to help me be strong and reach for the best. by no means am i saying we are going to get married. and all this sounds so crazy, trust me i know. but i can't help letting it feel so right.
don't worry, definitely going to take it slow.
but im following my heart! ♡
this man has inspired me to be better. he makes me feel so good about myself and confident. the whole time on our date he just kept telling me how beautiful i was. he couldn't get over it. and that made me feel so good. and i really noticed it today at work. i was just so happy (like that feeling you get when you like someone ha) and i could tell by the way i carried myself today that i felt so much better about myself and who i am and where i've been. and just by being told im beautiful by someone who shares the same feelings as i do. it feels really good.
he has blue eyes and is 6'3" he loves the fact that i have a child and he showed me that he is good with kids. im sorry but to me you just don't get more perfect than that. lol. :] and he compliments everything i have to offer! i don't want to come off as this obsessive freak because im not. i just feel like the little mermaid when she thinks about prince eric....hahahah.
anyways. i really have my fingers crossed that this goes somewhere.
♡ xo xo ashley
i met this guy who is seriously so perfect. and when i say perfect, i mean perfect for me!
he took me on the best first date i have ever been on.
he picked me up and would not tell me where we were going. as we were driving to our destination the suspense kept building! i was going crazy because it had to be a surprise. he wouldn't tell me where we were going! finally we pulled into maverick helicopters. i was still freaking out but at the same time i was so excited. he was taking me on a helicopter ride!!! i was with this very attractive man, going on a helicopter ride! these things don't happen everyday haha. our helicopter ride took us over the strip in Vegas. it honestly was one of the coolest things ever.
after our ride, we went to Excalibur, the tournament of kings! dinner and a show! you have to eat with your hands. ;p i was kind of grossed out cause it was a chicken and i don't like using my fingers haha and bones, slimy and eww. so i didn't eat very much. but the show was fun.
after that we came back to my house and we hung out and talked till 4 in the morning! this girl NEVER does that. haha im usually in bed at 9:30. well, always before 11. but we definitely had some intense conversations and just got to know each other. i don't know if i feel like ive known him forever but i do know that i would like to get to know him forever. this sounds crazy because we have only been on one date. but it really was just that great! he is very in tuned with the gospel and that is something that i love. i may have drifted away from that part of my life but its still there, its something that i still want. and still something that i want to raise my kids in and have it be a part of my life. and i want someone who is going to help me be strong and reach for the best. by no means am i saying we are going to get married. and all this sounds so crazy, trust me i know. but i can't help letting it feel so right.
don't worry, definitely going to take it slow.
but im following my heart! ♡
this man has inspired me to be better. he makes me feel so good about myself and confident. the whole time on our date he just kept telling me how beautiful i was. he couldn't get over it. and that made me feel so good. and i really noticed it today at work. i was just so happy (like that feeling you get when you like someone ha) and i could tell by the way i carried myself today that i felt so much better about myself and who i am and where i've been. and just by being told im beautiful by someone who shares the same feelings as i do. it feels really good.
he has blue eyes and is 6'3" he loves the fact that i have a child and he showed me that he is good with kids. im sorry but to me you just don't get more perfect than that. lol. :] and he compliments everything i have to offer! i don't want to come off as this obsessive freak because im not. i just feel like the little mermaid when she thinks about prince eric....hahahah.
anyways. i really have my fingers crossed that this goes somewhere.
♡ xo xo ashley
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