ta ta taday!

today was such a good day.

i woke up, got us ready, and than we went car shopping :)

i guess its just not my time to get a car yet. but it was fun to hang out with my daddy. it was so hot today holy cow. i just wanted to come home and jump in a pool!

my dad and dawnie are landscaping our front yard. it looks really good. i think our house is beautiful :)

me and cali had so much fun together today. after car shopping we played some games.

played with dixie,

and played outside,

ran through the sprinklers (sorta) and went on a scooter ride. we took lots of pictures which will be up as soon as i can put them up! they are so cute. eek :))

cali tried to carwl today, but she fell on her face. ahah soon. her legs are very strong. she loves the jumper!! she has so much fun in that thing. we tried squash today. she wasnt the biggest fan. it just boggles my mind how much she grows and changes day by day. she is always learning new things. <3 awe. shes my baby! i love her :)

happy mothers day!!!

happy mothers day to my mommy cheree! i love you so much! your my best friend. im so glad that your my mom. i hope you have a wonderful day.

happy mothers day to my step mom dawnie. you have been such a good role model, and have taught me lots of motherly things. thank you.

happy mothers day to my grandma sherrie. i love you! you have always been there for me, like a mother, and you have also taught me many things.

as i have watched all these women as ive grown up, it has helped me be the mother that i am today. i can't thank you each enough. you guys are the best and im so blessed and lucky to have you all in my life.
love you all <3

fishing!

i caught a big cat fish :]

time flies

a year ago, i got in a car wreck

and got to go to the hospital

to see if my baby was okay. everything was well,

and i got to find out what it was...

(a little side note, this nurse was the same one who helped deliver me:)

tell me! tell me what it is...

ITS A GIRL!!! :]

i honestly can't believe that was a year ago! time flies.

and now my baby is 7 months old!!!

she is getting so big!!!

i miss my hair

being this color!! i loved it. i am working on getting it back that way!!!

mac n cheese

shailee loved helping make "cheese"

she was being so cute.

she was stiring in the ingredients and saw the glove on the counter and wanted it on.

and then we ate it :]

yummy yummy yummy, delcioso!

(dora the explorer)

update: 12may12

cali is 7 months old! can you believe it? its going by way to fast.
she has advanced alot from my last update.
she can roll over now. it is so cute and fun to watch, shes been doing that for awhile.
she also sits all by herself. and now that she can sit she hates tummy time and will not roll over. but we do it anyways.
eating baby food, yes! she loves veggies. her favorite is sweet potatoes. mmm!
she scoots backwards and sideways, crawling is not far behind. i predict she'll be crawling in at least a months time.
cali gives hugs and kisses. its the cutest thing ever!! and lately she has been tilting her head to the side, smiling, acting all shy. it is so cute. i need to capture it on camera.
we have lots of fun together. we play with her toys, go on walks, and play with big sister shai, and cousin emery.

i got my wisdom teeth out :p not fun.
i did it through jean brown research. haha so they called me back, i layed in the chair. they gave me shots to numb me and some nitrous oxide to calm me. and then they started working on me with in seconds. i was awake but i was so out of it from the gas that i didnt even care. so when i was half way done, i started to hear someone whistle. i thought, who in the heck is whistling like that while doing surgery!?!? i assumed it was the other doctor in the other room. but then everything started to go fast, like it was on fast forward, like the procedure went through my mind super fast and the whistling got super fast. i was totally high! i have never felt that sensation before. but i realized it and i started to laugh. it was so funny. and during the whole surgery, i thought about my baby girl. i was so scared i was going to die. haha sounds dumb but its true. after i was done, i was numb forever. i had to stay in this room while they tested some pain medication. after the numbness started to wear off, i was in so much pain.! and then they finally gave me my meds, and a couple hours later it kicked in. it was worth it though. i got paid $300!
my grandma took care of cali while i was in surgery, and shes been taking care of both of us while ive been home. shes the best grandma! thank you so much for all your help! i don't know what i would have done with out you. <3

so im supposed to be moving the 20th, but i possibly might be moving sooner if i get this job! like tuesday. i hope i get it! im super nervous. keep your fingers crossed. its part time, $10 an hour. which is perfect for what i need right now.

"a chance meeting with a stranger may soon change your life"

my fortune from my fortune cookie :]

my princess,,

have you ever had to love someone that just dont feel the same? trying to make somebody care for you the way i do is like trying to catch the rain. and if love is really forever im a winner at a loosing game,

sometimes two hearts just cant dance to the same beat.
i know that ill never be the girl that you need or love. yeah, baby its killin me to stand here and see im not what you've been dreamin of.

once upon a time is literally my favorite tv show!!! it gets better and better every week. next week is the season finale! ahhh what am i going to do with out it!  im super excited. it looks amazing!

date night

i finally had my date with brandon friday night! :) we went to 5 guys, and then we went to see the lucky one. it was a super cute movie. i liked it alot. and i kind of can relate to some parts in that movie which im glad i got to see because it just made me feel like a stronger person!  and reassured me that everything is going to be alright. 
anyways, we didnt hold hands :\ he was probably super nervous ;) but after the movie we went to the park and laid under the starts. we cuddled and maybe even kissed :)  im starting to like him more than just friends. but i know we cant be more cause im moving and he is going on a mission. maybe when he gets home? :) he is such a good guy and so sweet. im glad that we can be friends. cant wait to go out with him again :)


last night, saturday, i hung out with steven. he picked me up and we went and got his motorcycle. we went on a ride around provo, and it was so fun. i think motorcycles are so sexy hee hee. we drove around and ate at sammys. we ordered some sweet potato fries ewww and some regular fries. steve kept saying ash you have to try these (sweet potato fries) and i was like ahhh no way! and he got some carmel and was dipping the sweet potato fries in it. so i tried some and omg! i was so surprised. it was really yummy. it tasted like french toast. and then we went back home.

when it was over i was so happy to come home to my little angel. she is such a sweet little girl. i am the luckiest women to be able to come home to her. words cannot describe the love i have for my daughter. im going to try my hardest to make things right so she can be happy! i cant believe how fast she is growing up! i will do an update on her soon! <3

my little sister is married!

congratulations to my wittle sister hayley, and my new brother in law connor. i love you both very much and wish you the best of luck in life.
it was such a beautiful wedding. hayley looked amazing. and everything went so well. and it was so much fun.
im so happy for you guys :)
me, ashley bryant, erica, and chelsea decorated their car. it wasnt that great but we did what we could :)
the groomsmen and bridesmaids were so immature. including me haha when we were rehersing, we would walk down the isle with our partner and dawnie was like say thank you to each other at the end of the isle when you split. so me and braxton were walking down and we look at each other, say thank you. and burst out laughing. and then t said to his lady, "grasious" (spanish for thank you how ever you spell it) and then tanner looks at the girl he walked down with and said you look so beautiful. and everyone was just laughing, those boys are so funny. but we had a great time. and the ceremonny was beautiful.  dawnie did such a wonderful job. :) anyways, congratulations again!!

hayley hardy, :) hee hee

what i want is to be needed. what i need is to be indispensable to somebody. who i need is somebody that will eat up all my free time, me ego, my attention. somebody addicted to me. a MUTUAL addiction.