its my birthday and i can cry if i want to

february 16 2013

the big TWO ZERO!

this birthday was a lot different from all the others.

i didn't do anything. which for me is kind of a big deal. but i didn't want to do anything. is that weird? it was not a good day to have an off day. i was kind of sad. :[ i don't know why. i just was. i really missed my daddy. this was my first birthday not being or seeing him. i hate admiting this for everyone to see, but i think i just wanted to spend my birthday with calvin, shailee, and cali. is that bad of me? :p

i just kinda hung out with my mom and cali and watched gossip girl :] which was good. my aunt shelly made yummy chalupas. and i went hot tubbing with my new bff rachelle averett :D and hopefully this week or weekend we will have a little party.  because i want a cake and candles. :]

cheesecake is usually my favorite but this year i want strawberry short cake and whipped cream. mmm yummy. that sounds so good.

 

im so glad that i have cali. she is better than any guy. i would rather spend all my time with her than some boy. i just love her so much and she means more to me than anything. im so happy that i got to be with her on my birthday...and everyday for that matter.

 

and thank you to all of those who wished me a happy birthday :] you guys are fab!!

 

i was thinking a out my previous birthdays and what ive done.

16: my sweet 16. spent with my amazing boyfriend at the time and my bestest friends. my dad and step mom planned a surprise birthday party for me. my boyfriend alex hiatt picked me up and told me we were going to eat. we pulled into liberty land and i was like what are we doing? we pulled up to the front and there stood my dad and dawnie. i was like what the heck haha....i still had no idea what was going on. so i got out and they said, "surprise!" i was so shocked. we went inside and there were my 3 best friends. kellie joe, irene guzman, & rachel benson. we got to rock climb as many times as we wanted because we were thee only ones there. it was so much fun. and then alex's best friend and his girlfriend came. we all had pizza and cake and ice cream and played lazer tag. after that, my dad took me, kelli, rachel and irene to soldier hollow. we sledded (idk how else to say that haha) all day long. it was so much fun. for those of you who haven't been to soldier hollow, you rent some tubes and they have a tube lift that takes you way up this hill and you sled down. it is phenomenal. and after sledding all day we went back home and me and my family and boyfriend went to my favorite restaurant. cafe rio :]  best birthday ever!!

17: me and my sisters hayley and kellie, went to the mall and had a good time. and then we came home. i made my own cake. and invited a few friends over. nothing to special.

18: i had just found out i was pregnant a couple of weeks before my birthday. i still hadn't told my parents until the day before my birthday. which was a big mistake. we had planned to go to dinner; my dad, dawnie, calvin and i. so it had made everything so awkaward. but we went to los hermanos and we tried to make the best out of the situation. and then we went back to my parents and had cake and ice cream :]

19: calvin and i had just broken up a couple of weeks before. dawnie had made me cake and my dad, cali and emery were there to share it with me :] 

i was so worried that i wasn't going to do anything. tyson davis asked me what i was doing for my birthday and i told him nothing so he said i am going to take you out. we went to dinner at apple bees and then we watched a movie.

20: i stayed home. watched gossip girl. hot tubbed with chelle. snuggled with my baby girl.

 

i guess i don't do to much on my birthdays but i always have cake and ice cream and get to blow out candles. i think thats what was just so different. but...thats okay! im just a year older. but don't feel like it yet ;]