My blog has literally gone down hill. Ha, oh well.

My life right now is a mess. Somedays i feel a certain way and in a matter of seconds, they change. Just like that.

I know im not ready to date someone serious. At first it was because i wanted to be with calvin. But the more i realize and grow and learn about myself...i want someone who loves me and wants to be with me. Vise versa. Slowly i am realizing i dont want to be with him. Im ready to move on. And that doesnt necessarily mean on to another guy. It means move on with my life. Move forward with cali and i. I dont have time or energy to deal with another human being. If that makes me selfish, then so be it.
The lord works in mysterious ways. And i know when the time is right they will happen.


Now that beong said,i still love being taken out. I love spending time out of the house and with different people. I also like getting to know all different walks of life. No one is the same. Every individual is different. Through dating i learn what i do and dont like.

So tonight i went on a date. And i always want to remember it. Because it actually felt like a date. weather i see this man again or not, i had so much fun. We went to the NFR, aftee that we walked around the strip and to the venesan where they had an ice skating rink. (Fake one obviously) but we skated and it was just really cute. He was fun and sweet. Then i decided i wanted to go home. He took me to my moms to get cali . He took cslu and he also gave my mom money for watching cali. Which to me was thesweetest thing ever. I just thought it was very respectful. And i aappreciated it so much. He tooj me home and on my way wheb we almost arrived. I realized i didnt have my keys. So we had to turn around