the first of june,

 

can i just say that i am so happy that its june!?!?

i don't know why but i love this month <3

i love the weather. the sunshine. the birds. the sounds. everything.

here are a couple of photos for you all, its been awhile since ive posted any on here.

just enjoying this summer day.

uncle reesy fell asleep and cali just wanted to snuggle and lay with him.

darling!!

 

UPDATE:

geez, i hate when i slack on our progress. 

cali is talking pretty well. her newest words is, caca (aunt shelley taught her that one)

she says pizza. tasty (my fav when she says that) delicious. what is that. hi. bye. eat eat. night night. mommy. ma. mama. (lol) one. two. three. eye. dog. uh oh. wow. no. she says way more but there are a some of her words.

if she wants something she will grab your pants and walk you to what she wants. she is very smart.

she can point to her: eyes. nose. ears. teeth. noggin. hair. toes. arm. 

she know the kitty says meow. and the dog pants. she says tweet tweet for a bird. and she oinks for a pig, which is her favorite animal. she has some piggy jammies that she almost has to wear every night hahaha.

i have this game on my phone, number games for kids. and the have on thing you press it it says 1. and then the next page has 2 things on it, like butterflies and you press one it says 1 and then you press the second one it says 2. so on so forth. anyways, cali can do it all by herself. and it goes all the way to ten. and she know which ones haven't been numbered yet. its super cute. and when it gets to 4, there are 4 tomatoes and every time she always says mmm and licks her lips. its so freakin cute.

she still is such a good eater. she eats whatever we are eating with very few exceptions. 

she loves to watch movies. her favorite one to watch is tangled. 

calvin came down to see cali for a day. cali went right to him and he helped take care of her while he was with her. blehh. i miss him. why does he have to be so gay and not want to be with us!? plus i swear he likes to make me mad just because he can. 

cali loves to play pat a cake. sing itsy bitsy spider. ring a round the rosies. she loves to swing. play with chalk. 

she is so full of personality. and i love it. she is so funny and we have a lot of fun together. she gives thee cutest darn kisses and biggest hugs. but she also likes to beat you up. cali is very musically inclined. she loves to play instruments, she sings and dances! and she is pretty good at it if i do say so myself. i love her so much.

as for me, my second job is going well. i drop cali off at 7:30 and then i don't get done working till 6:30 which is definitely hard because id rather stay home and be with her. but i have to do what i have to do. and it is all going to be worth it in the end. even right now its worth it.

i have come to love who i am. at first what i was going through was an excuse for me to not progress and to let me be depressed and it made me think that i wasn't good enough. for anything or anyone. ive dated a couple of guys since calvin and each individual has helped me see things in myself that i never saw before. and each time i grow and find something new about who i am that i love and wouldn't change to be anything but me. i love my body. even though i would love a boob job and i want one, i am happy with having no boobs. i love how skinny i am and that i can eat whatever the heck i want and still be skinny. i couldn't have been blessed more. my body is perfect. and when i use to hate it and be embarrassed i have come to realize that this is my body type. this is who i am. this is the home of my spirit while i am here on earth. and there is not a greater feeling than loving who you are. one of the reasons i moved down to vegas was because i wanted to find who i was. and be who i am. and love that person. and i honestly can say that i do. i finally do. and one thing i want to help cali with is to love herself. i think that is such an important thing to know. 

i really would love to take time off and go on a vacayshh. i just love vacationing. i love getting away. doing what i want. having fun. maybe next year? cali will be older and be able to communicate better, and i need to save for a new car before mine takes a poopy. 

im going to invest in a toilet seat for cali and start potty training her. she knows what the toilet is. what its used for. shes pooped in the toilet once. i think with her own toilet seat will help her not be afraid to sit on the toilet. because thats our issue right now. 

i got an instagram! @scandalashh .follow me. #instaworld

hmmm, what else? 

CHELSEA GRADUATED!!

horray!

she worked her butt off. and studied super hard. she was a 4.0 student. and im so proud!! i love her and she truly is an amazing person.

just a random pic of me in my sweet spongebob christmas jammies. heck yeah!

i got these bad boys for my sweet 16. i thought it was a joke when i opened this present but aparently it wasn't ahhaha i still laugh about it to this day. i love them and i am glad i got them!

p.s. i hate spongebob hahha

 

another random. i just like to take pictures of myself some times.

even in my towel when ive just gotten out of the bath and all ready for the day.

don't judge! 

 

memorial day,

cali and i spent memorial day in st george with mikey. we took a long walk to the st george temple and admired its beauty. i would love to be sealed to my family someday. and i can not wait. just knowing that i will be with them forever even after this life is rewarding in itself.

we had fun being in the sun, and walking in the ditches filled with water. i love st geezy.

i am in love with this picture <3

not so much this edited one, but it is still adorable. my sister caught the perfect moment. cali absolutely loves to swing and i love to push her and let her swing. she has so much fun.

i say this in just about every post. but i love cali. she has made me such a better person than i ever was. she has helped me grow as an individual, a mother, and a person.

she is the greatest blessing 

the greatest gift

and i love her with all of my heart and i would do anything for her!!!

alright fabulous followers,

this post is forever long. read it or dont :)

goodnight,

xoxo